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Saturday, October 30th, 2004
7:48 pm - Out of their faces and into their shoes
on the bus: Successful Christian witnessing begins not with in your face gospel showdowns but with in your shoes empathy.

Gospel Showdowns? I love it!

Maggie is dating Cedric Severino. Long distance, San Francisco to L.A., L.A. to San Francisco.

I started smoking again for the first time since the weekend in June when I got paid for the first time by the Viceroy Indian Restaurant and immediatly bought a pack because they were stressing me out so much. Then I realized the unsustainability of smoking to reduce my hatred for them, while only working there for 12 hours a week tops and getting paid 7$ an hour. But I started again because I didn't get this five-week temp position working in an environmental analysis lab in Berkeley. Rejection is hard to handle.

current mood: pensive

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Friday, September 17th, 2004
1:10 pm - poker, kings, bars, no rest, no work

From the top, three games of poker: five card draw, texas hold-em, and wild queen.

five card draw, all face cards are wild.

spitting in the kitty, two bottles of boone's farm: fuzzy navel and raspberry lemonade.

Delirium: i like your hat, i like your belt, i like you because you want to meet me.

what is it that we all have in common in here? WE HAVE TO PEE

Zeigeist: verbal abuse, where the fuck do you think you're going? i thought bars were supposed to have a minimal level of customer service.

Everyone is over 30.

Going hoarse.

Janelle calls at 9 a.m. for a 13 hour shift. Saturday and Sunday.

current mood: tired

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Tuesday, July 13th, 2004
1:19 am - da da da drunk, monday night, on shadduck
i'm not actually that drunk. but i just feel really nice. because the cook Bhindar at my restaurant just did something really really nice for me.
So I've been working at Viceroy for about four weeks now. Ups and downs, but on the whole I just dream of when I quit and will report them to the labor board. But in the mean time, Bhindar asked me to call the consulate of spain in San Francisco because his girlfriend was going for half a year to spain and germany to visit relatives. and he hasn't seen her for two years. So I called them, realized they were very reluctant in a sort of spiteful way (i don't necessarily hold that against them) to speak english to me, so I e-mailed them and got him info on how to get a visa to go the Schengen States. (which I learned was most of europe... who knew???)
So he works at the restaurant for upwards 80 hours a week. and he invited me to come and bring my "husband" or whoever for dinner after they closed and the owners left. I showed up with dan, shannon and ilya, and he made us like 6 dishes, plus he kept telling me to go get drinks. we had six or seven giant beers, Twenty Two O Z's, and then some lassi's and masala chai. I turned on the neo-Indian piano music they always play, and bhindar made us all this food, and rice and naan. It was really really amazing, and he was really really drunk off of the house red wine and black labels. I feel that this (probably about 150$ meal all and all) made up for a lot of the screwing over they have done for me.
I just hope he invites friends over after hours for meals often enough that it makes up for how much they rip him off. I mean, maybe MAYBE in perspective he is doing a lot better then he would be in India, and I also found out that he had a gig driving a truck for a while where he made a lot more $$ before his licence got taken away for two years because he was drinking while driving, but still- they don't tax his salary, which makes me think that they don't tax ANYONE that works there, and here they were trying to make me think that they were being so generous not taxing me. they said- see, you save so much money because we don't want to put you on the payroll because we know you're only going to work here for a short time. blah blah. blah. and then all that bull shit about how they wouldn't tip me out because they put all the tips in the cash register and divided them up among all the employees when they handed out the checks. Right, because the money the customers leave for service on the table is meant to go to all the employees. And not only to the waiter and the hostess/busser/waterperson/dessertperson/checkperson/drinksperson. ahhhhhhh.
Anyway, I had a lot of fun running around my restaurnat and serving my friends and myself to everything I have wanted to try for the last four weeks.

current mood: chipper

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Thursday, July 8th, 2004
9:29 pm - I LOVE YOU
i'm just sitting here, drinking my miller high life LIGHT , waiting for shan and illin to come over. oh my god, this is what i did today.
i spent about four hours on the internet looking for jobs.
one hour walking around handing my resume to 20-somethings behind counters across the city.
another hour crying in front of the internet because i was so bored.
three more hours scratching my balls.
half an hour watching the original production of the Postman always Rings Twice, cos the first time i got it Blockbuster hadn't adequatly marked that it was the 1980 version with Jack Nicholsonn and Jessica Landay and i wasn't too impressed with it.
then an hour making dinner.
then a few more minutes getting my Miller High Life LIGHT and getting a heist movie for when the kids come and saying whats up to my favorite blockbuster employees Ryan and Joe. Ryan was the one who signed us up for the unlimited Blockbuster rentals.

See, now if you're as bored reading this as I am writing it, then you now have a small idea the hellish loop I am swaggering around in every day.
I can't drink all the time because I can't afford it. I"m drinking Miller High Life LIGHT for my sweet lord Jesus Christ's sake.
And I can't smoke because I might get a job that needs a drug test.
And I quit smoking because Dan took my last three cigarettes and filled the pack up with water and left it on the counter over night while I passed out from too much vodka and sugar water drinks.

current mood: Intrepid

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Monday, June 28th, 2004
12:01 pm - Coming soon! ***Abby's Adventures with Bill Clinton***
Cody's Books, 12 p.m. Pacific Time

current mood: nerdy

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Monday, June 14th, 2004
6:01 pm - HaChi Chadash Sheli B-Berkeley
so i've been in berkeley for about 5 days , maybe four. i'm sort of amused at it so far, i guess amused in a sort of black humor sort of way would be the best way to describe it.
first, amtrak lost one of the bags i checked, so most of my clothes, shampoo, blanket, running shoes, etc are all gone. they are "looking" for it, and yesterday they gave me $100 of "emergency money" to tide me over until either they find my bag or my claim goes through. i had to file a claim so they would reimburse me for everything i lost, but ofcourse i realized today that i underestimated the cost because everything in CA is so much more expensive then in the midwest. but whatever, it's too late now. i just hope they give me all the money i asked for. i miss my stuff.
Then, there is my job. The second day i was here i went into an Indian restaurant- Viceroy on the corner of University and Shadduck. And i got a job as a bus boy, minimum wage. It really sucks, and I'm going to quit as soon as I find out about th emoney. but the owners are so sketchy, and i found out from the waiter i work with Gautam that he does not get any of the tips that the people leave. First I was already pissed because they haven't been tipping me out, but I was like whatever, I'll be here for two weeks, and I'm sure if i complain i'll either get fired or they give me like 2 or 3 $ a night, so whatever. But now I find out the owners just keep all the money that i know i earn because i spend the most time with the customers, so I'm going to start pocketing tips as often as possible, and then if they screw me over in any way i will picket the restaurant untilll i find a better job/something better to do.
But the weather is nice,and I got an unlimited video rental from Blockbuster across teh street from my house, so I've seen like 4 movies since I got here. I saw the Big Sleep this afternoon with Humphry Bogart and Lauren Bacall and I was really into it, even though I usually hate black and white movies because I can't differenetiate between the characters.

current mood: annoyed

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Tuesday, May 25th, 2004
9:03 pm

Who Would Slaughter You in a Horror Movie? Find out @ She's Crafty

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8:58 pm

Which Action Star Are You? Find out @ She's Crafty

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Saturday, May 15th, 2004
10:33 pm - j'deteste finals
i went to this art installation earlier tonight of a acquaintance/sort of friend of mine. (i have very high standards for people before i will call them my friend, not so high standards for acquaintances though).
anyway, the art opening was this faux boxing match where the guy rented a boxing ring and his twin brother came in and they had a choreographed fight.
to set the scene:
i showed up like five minutes after it started and they weren't letting more people in cos of fire codes or whatever, and so i went up to this door that you go in to get onto the balcony where all the lights people are. so the door is locked but this girl shows up with these other twins i know, and she uses a credit card to pick the lock, which was fucking incredible, and then one of the AV guys is like no way, and shuts the door on us, but i stuck it out with julia and eventually we followed some other AV people in there.
so i'm sitting over looking this ring, and i see this guy i had a crush on, huge crush on, down there. and so after about 10 minutes of starring back and forth between him and fight because he looked so hot from up there, i realized that i was completely starring at him instead of watching the fight, and i felt like i was in this movie where everyone including him is starring at this boxing match (very faux boxing match) and i'm looking in the other direction.
and then i got all depressed because in a crush like this, i get all obsessed with these grandeur ideas like destiny and fate or we'd be cute together, whatever whatever whatever, and how i wish i had the nerve,not to have this stupid romance but just to be like, hey you looked fucking sexy from the balcony, and maybe be fake creepy about it, but it is just depressing not to have the nerve to do things like that when i know i would do it when i'm drunk, and i know i don't care that i would do that when i'm drunk.
i miss you emma and brian!!! come visit me next week!!! if you guys even just come for the night, daniele and i are having a party friday night.

current mood: thoughtful

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Thursday, May 13th, 2004
10:55 am - i gotta poop
I had this really weird dream just when I had to get up this morning and go to my last bird class ever!!
It was one of those dreams where it is sort of a repetitive theme all in one dream, like a recurring dream except it is all in one dream instead of night after night after night.
So it was like a three part dream. And Emma Phlemma - you will love this....
In all parts I was walking down this street to go to this concert and I think my band THE SURLEY BASTARDS played at the first concert, and i think at the second one i was making out with someone,
but the third one starts with me sitting by this huge tree-like thing, and there is this giant black bear sleeping behind it with a smaller cub wrapped up with it. And then there is an even smaller cub that walks over on its hind legs and starts talking to me. I forget everything it said- but it was like- "you have to be quiet, or i'm going to be in so much trouble, " and it pointed to the inside of the tree and was like "see, i live in there, and when she gets mad, i hear like 90% of all the roars"...
so then someone was like Abby, come on we have to go to this concert blah blah blah and me and this little bear started walking down the street together to the concert, and then david cammaratta was behind me with his new girlfriend Susan, and they were talking a bit, and i think i was like- yeah, i'm meeting my sister here, and Susan was like " oh my god, you have a sister, that's so great" and something else about how i was blessed to have a sister or something.
and then david made some comment about how it was great too, but not in a creepy way, but more in i'm going to pretend i don't know anything about this- kind of way.
Funny shit!!

Oh yeah, and i think i'm going to apply for this job in berkeley that i am a bit unqualified for but it pays 40Gs a year!!!!!!!!!!!!! so let's hope they over look it all so i can be rich rich rich rich rich rich.

current mood: ecstatic

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Sunday, May 2nd, 2004
9:01 pm - stealing brian's on line quizzy quizzes
i'm in the computer lab, looking up sh*t for this research paper that is due in two weeks. i slept for 13 hours last night so i feel really creeped out from being way too well rested and coherent in the head. a bunch of people around oberlin's houses were broke into in the last few weeks, and there are a lot of reports of this guy showing up in a woman's room and either staring at her while she sleeps or going through her stuff. they know who one of these people (a 40 yr old man)is, but for some reason he isn't being detained, pretty fuckked up eh?
i'm freaking out about jobs now too. i dont' have one, don't really feel like looking for one, etc. and the ***Exploratorium*** hasn't written me back yet

current mood: apathetic

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8:59 pm - This is how I feel on sundays.
I am Nothing!

Which Enemy of the Christian Church Are You?

Take More of Robert & Tim's Quizzes
Watch Robert & Tim's Cartoons

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